"you must have never had a juggalo between yer thighs..."

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So... My mom finally made me an appointment to go to the doctor and get on birth control. It's for next Thursday.
I'm a little nervous... Like... I don't know how to explain it. I'm happy that I'm being put on the pill. After what happened last time my period was late, I'm more than relieved that there will be a lesser chance of that happening again. PLUS... The sooner I'm on the pill, the sooner I can start having sex again.... I've been trying to make thing easier on my mom (when she found out I started having sex, she took it REALLY bad... She even grounded me so I couldn't leave the house and go have sex... Talk about psycho) and she's asked me not to have sex until I'm on the pill... So I've been trying to turn myself around a bit and avoid any and all trouble (i'm somewhat of a trouble maker, and I was grounded for most of the summer for a bunch of different things... And it's hard enough trying to stay outta trouble when it seems to stick to you like a leech, but you know.. I'm trying *shrug*)
I just don't really know what to expect when I get to the doctor? I'm not really too comfortable with people looking at my body, especially my crotch. The only ones allowed down there are myself and the one and only guy I have sex with. Maybe some one can give me some tips on how to relax and not be so nervous about this??

Oh and. About birth control... I know you shouldn't really smoke while you're on BC. But I've tried and I just can't seem to kick the habit... My mom smokes and she's on BC, and I know that doesn't make it RIGHT but.. Is it a MAJOR health risk? And I also smoke weed and drink on occasion;(Please no lectures, I get them enough from my mom..) what effects would that have on BC??

Any help would be just lovely

<3Brandy