Scared & Worried

[sister0fnight.livejournal.com]

So I finally went to my dread appointment at PP.
They didn't really do much, which surprised me. I didn't get anything - except my blood pressure taken. Then the doctor talked to me, gave me my pills, and let me be on my way.

The thing I'm nervous about is that since my periods are veeeeeery irregular, and I have to start the damned pills the day after I start my period (which I don't understand, nor did I know), I think I might be screwed. I told her that due to my irregularities, I might not get it soon. So she told me that if it didn't come within 3 months I'd have to call and make an appointment so they could run some tests.

They asked me when my last period was. I told them about 2 weeks ago. They asked me when my last last period was. Well, hell... it was so irregular I had no recollection. I knew it had to be over a year. The doctors eyes went wide.

"A year?!" she said.
"Yea. I told you its irregular."

She said it could be something that just works itself out in time, but if it continued, it could pose a problem to my having a child in the future.

This scares me a HELL of a lot, because I want to have Josh's baby. And he wants to have kids, and I'm afraid he'll leave me if I can't have kids. I know this is just a speculation, but I have terrible luck. Right now I'm just hoping my period comes next month.

I'm really scared and worried and hating/b> my body right now.

Comments

[divinemissa.livejournal.com]

Don't freak out just yet about not having a baby. Like your doctor said, it could well be something that will work itself out in time. I looked at your profile... you're 17. You could maybe just be one of the people whose cycles take a long time to settle out. If you still have this problem when you're older, then you might want to worry about infertility. Go in for the tests in three months if nothing happens... it'll settle your mind, and if you do have some sort of physical problem, you can very likely get it treated. Modern medicine can do one hell of a lot.

In the meantime, relax, if you can. I've had nervousness (over exams, personal issues, and once a pregnancy scare) delay my periods.

[sister0fnight.livejournal.com]

I'll try my best to chill out. But it's going to be a bit hard. I mean, things pop into my head like me having endo or something. It could very possibly be nothing. But I tend to always always always look on the bad side of things. I'm a horrible pessimist.

[divinemissa.livejournal.com]

I get you. It bites that the times you are supposed to relax are the times when you're under the most stress. My dad had a heart attack several years ago... he was told to reduce his anxiety level, and was like, "But I just had a heart attack. I can't help but feel a little nervous about that."

Do your best... that's all anyone can ask of you. Maybe try meditation? Or prayer if you're the religious type. Do research on causes and treatments of irregular periods (research always makes me feel better, but I'm a massive nerd).

Nerd Powah.

[sister0fnight.livejournal.com]

Lmao. So I am. Don't worry none too much about that. I think I will go and do some research, maybe then I'll find some solace. Thank ya muchly.