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[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Okay. Wow. Um. Yes.

*takes deep breath*

I'm really worried I might have something wrong with my ovaries or something like that. I've been having my period less and less. I'm lucky if I have it once every two months. And I can't remember the last time I had one right now. I lie and say I have it whenever it best suits me but... Lets just say, if I woke up one morning to find my sheets soaked in blood, I wouldn't be mad or upset at all. I would rejoice.

And... I really thought my period was going to start this week. On Saturday, I went to the bathroom, and I noticed a thick redish gray discharge. I've been having that for awhile/years the day before my period starts (which I also don't think is normal, but w/e). But then... Sunday it didn't start. Nor did it start on Monday. So that night, (I can't believe I'm letting you people know this but...) I was masturbating. And I noticed I was bleeding. Bleeding like I would if I was having my period. I was so happy. I checked my thong to see if there was blood on it, and there wasn't. So I figured it must have just started. So I put a tampon in and was happy. That morning when I woke up though, I went to take the tampon out... and there was hardly any blood on it. I mean, it was like it was my last day when there was hardly any left. Then Tuesday, there was absolutely nothing. Wednesday... there was that weird redish discharge again. Now I'm kind of bleeding, but not. (I know, that last sentance doesn't make sense at all.)

I'm so lost and paranoid that there's some kind of infection festering inside of me. I'm afraid that, when I get older, I won't be able to have kids. Or what if there is nothing wrong with me and I'm just a paranoid little freak??? I don't know...

My best friend said I should go see a doctor. I'm afraid. I don't want to. I don't want to have to tell my parents, I don't want to have to tell some doctor I've only met once. I don't want people I don't know looking at me and touching me in or around that area. I don't want any of that.

But I want to know what the heck is up with my body.

So if any of you can shed any light... I'd really apprechiate it.

Comments

[fianna.livejournal.com]

How old are you?

Are you sexually active?

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

I'm 16 years old and have been having my period since age 8, and I'm still a virgin.

[fianna.livejournal.com]

Ok. I just asked beacuse there are so many factors that come in depending on age and sexual activity etc.

I agree with the other posters that you should go to a gynecologist to get things checked out. If it is a cyst it is important you get it checked out and treated so that it does not cause problems for fertility later on in life. Some people have something called PCOS
( http://www.pcos.net/whatis.html ) and that causes women to have very irregular periods etc.

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the link and for helping me out

[fianna.livejournal.com]

Sure, I hope things work out for you!

[-igneous.livejournal.com]

If kids are important to you in the future, go see a doctor. I had problems with my periods from age 14-16.. on my sixteenth birthday i had a vaginal ultrasound to discover I had cysts on my ovaries.. if gone unnoticed, I wouldn't be able to have children.. These doctors see vaginas and hear about menstrual problems all the time. And your mother and father know that as a female you have periods. It's part of nature and nothing to be ashamed about. I hope you decide to go see a doctor..

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

I've heard of cycts on ovaries before... and it sounds scary. (Well, to me anyway) Was the operation anything too dreadful?

[-igneous.livejournal.com]

not an operation..just a basic ultrasound..

you have to drink lots of water as with any ultrasound, then you go in and they stick this dildo looking thing with a camera on it inside your vagina and they can see things..much the same with a normal ultrasound, but i think they can see a few different areas..

it's a scary thing, but it can be treated..

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

How much does something like that cost?

[-igneous.livejournal.com]

My insurance covered it.. not sure about cost. Sorry. :-\ Just consult a gyno or your regular doctor...

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Alright, thanks a ton. :)

[xviragox.livejournal.com]

I don't know what's up, but your friend is right about seeing the doctor. Not going could end up being much, much worse for you than going and hearing some bad news.

Good luck, I hope everything is okay.

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Good point... getting bad news would be better than there being something wrong and never knowing about it. I hadn't thought of that (embarrassingly enough). Thank you :)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_last_serenade_/]

women should have gynecology exams by the time they're 18. it's just like going to a normal doctor, except gynecologists are specifically familiar with the female reproductive system. if you're truly uncomfortable with the idea at all, talk to your family doctor. my family doctor does my mom's exams, so maybe yours can do that too. if not, they should be able to recommend someone who will be good for you, someone you can really trust.

basically, what i'm saying, you SHOULD go to a doctor, and you should go SOON. but as you get older, it will become almost necessary that you go to a doctor because of specific problems and health issues we have as women. the good news is, when you find one you're comfortable with, you don't have to go to anyone else.

i'd talk to you mom and/or your family doctor about the problems you've been having. it doesn't sound too good. :/ i hope things get better for you.

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

I know this will sound silly, but I really don't know. What exactly does a gynecologist do? I mean, I know she checks everything out to make sure things are going fine... but how? Do they put some sort of thing inside of you to check, or what?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_last_serenade_/]

hmm, i'm trying to remember what all they do. when i go, the nurse will check your height, weight, blood pressure, all that good stuff. then the doctor comes in and they'll talk to you for a minute about any problems you might be having and any concerns you have. this would be a good time to say "hey, i'm a virgin, and this is my first exam, could you use children's instruments on me" (they have smaller exam instruments for children, it will probably be more comfortable for you). at this point, also explain to them the problems you're having with menstruation. they should be able to recommend a course of action once the exam is over and/or they get the results of your exam.

my doctor usually starts out by giving me a short breast exam. after that they will do the pelvic exam. they will insert 2 finger in your vagina and feel around your pelvis for abnormalities in your ovaries, fallopian tubes, and just your reproductive organs in general. it's not as bad as it sounds, really.

last is the pap smear. this is what some women have problems with, but if you have a good doctor it's not bad at all. they get a speculum (which is a little metal device) and that just holds the opening of your vagina open a little bit so the doctor can look inside to make sure nothing is abnormal. then they will get a small swab and rub your cervix to get some cells. it'll smart for a minute, but it's not unbearable, it's just kinda weird because, "whoa, WHAT are you touching, there??"...ya know?

anyway, it's not fun, by any means, but it's a good thing to do, especially if you're having menstrual troubles. my doctor found abnormal cells in my cervix and they tur

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Wow, well, I guess that doesn't sound all too bad... I'll definately make sure to ask them to use the childrens instruments, thanks for the advice.

What happened to the last sentance? It stops in the middle of a word!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_last_serenade_/]

oh, i guess it was too long...lol. sorry...anyway, i had precancerous cells in my cervix and if i hadn't had my annual exam it probably would have ended up as cervical cancer...but i caught it early enough that i only had to have minor surgery, no chemo or radiation or anything like that. so it is important that you GO!!! :)

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

I'm just really uncomfortable with the idea of some person I've never met before messing around with my vagina... I know I'm going to have to go sometime, but I'm really not looking forward to it. But since I'm worried about whatever the heck is going on with me, you're right... I should. But I'm kinda scared 'cause I'm not sure how to approach my mom about it.

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Thanks a million for the encouragement and sympathizing. It really helps. :)

[sulingsi.livejournal.com]

i know you had a million replies to your post already, but i just wanted to say that back when i was a little younger than you, i had these totally irregular periods making my life hell and i didn't want to bring it up to my mom. so instead of going to the doctor i was bleeding for like 8 months, and i got horribly anemic, and then i felt like a fool when i finally did go and they realized that i was practically drained of blood and my mom was upset and like "why didn't you tell me, honey?!" and all i needed to do was get on the pill and it fixed me all up from then til now. so, my advice is, corner her in the car! the way moms always do to us. they deserve some of their own medicine, and you'll be glad you did.
p.s. at the gynecologist they just look you over, feel around a little with gloved fingers, and look inside with a somewhat uncomfortable small metal device. ask someone who's been- it's not so bad. and they really want you to be comfortable, so you have the whole paper gown thing on and all that, you're not just naked on a table.

[aberrantpundit.livejournal.com]

Ack, that must have been horrible!

But cornering my mom in the car sounds like a good idea. Hehe...

Thanks for taking the time to comment!