menstrualhut

Hi, my name is ...1980, and I was born with a microperforated hymen.
If you want to hear about it, read more. I think it's kind of interesting, but I couldn't really describe it without being slightly visual. Hey, we all have these parts, so it shouldn't be a big deal. Ha.

I'm sharing this with you because maybe someone else out there has what I had, and is wondering what's up-- or maybe someone reading this is about to get the surgery done and is scared. Well. More than likely, none of you know what I'm talking about. I'll tell you.

It really sucked. I could feel this weird pinching if I would stretch my legs too far, or sit in a certain position. It had always been there, though, the pinching, so I figured it was normal for a girl who hadn't yet had sex. Ha, sex, there's a joke.
I couldn't even finger myself, let alone allow a boyfriend to venture downwards. I couldn't wear tampons. It just HURT! I didn't know why, either, because I had gone to a gyno who said everything was normal, and she would be able to inspect me normally if I'd just relax. (Lies.)

Eventually, it got to a point where my horse-hoof hymen which I thought was ordinary caused me extreme pain during my period. So, it was another trek to the gyno, and I was pretty fed up with it. I had toyed with the idea of getting myself drunk- REALLY drunk- and having a go with a toy of some sort, just rip the thing and get it over with. The gyno, however, made me glad I hadn't.
She pointed out that my hymenal opening was about the size of the tip of a Q-Tip, and I would have to have surgery to take my hymen from this: . to this: 0
...Not a pleasant sounding procedure. Think about it, you want some surgerypeoples poking around in your cooch? But. I went through with it, even though I'm deathly afraid of needles- forget IVs. I woke up screaming and crying in the recovery room, which is actually a pretty common way to arouse oneself from anaestesia, and as feeling entered my body again, I realised there was a large makeshift pad of gauze taped to my legs. The pain was -
Pain? THIS was the pain after surgery? I had more pain with my hymen than with stitches holding it's shards to my vaginal wall. Imagine that.
Walking was horrid for the first few days, and I bled more than I would have liked. However, they give me perscription narcotics- so all was well.
The surgery was three and a half weeks ago. I haven't used a tampon, and my boyfriend and I broke up (sadly; i love him.), so that 'portal' remains unexplored. Just as well, the surgeon recommended I wait until next week or so before attempting tampon-age.
I'm really glad I got this done. It feels _so_ much better, on a daily basis- and I'll keep you updated on tampon use as soon as I get my freaking period.