Saved By The Cramps

[orangiegirl.livejournal.com]

Halelujah! Another pair of white panties and khaki pants saved - by cramps!?

Yeah... I'm not thankful for cramps, but the cramps clued me in. On my way to get myself some lunch, I wondered why my stomach was hurting so bad, and when I realized it was cramps, I was relived. Finally. I've been expecting the Red Tide to come any day now.

When I got back, I went in the bathroom, only one little teensy weensy spot of brown. Yes. I'm so glad I didn't leak all over this outfit. I would have died of embarrassment - I think I left my sweater that I could tie around my waist, at home...

...ah the joys of womanhood, eh? Heehee.

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[00goddess.livejournal.com]

I got a phone call from the lame GYN that I went to a few weeks ago, who insisted that there is no evidence I have endometriosis, even though my previous IM doctor diagnosed me with it over a year ago.

Well, this is the doctor who was absolutely opposed to me having a laparoscopy. Apparently she went ahead and got authorization for it! Now, I'm really torn here- should I go ahead and have the surgery while I have the chance, even though I don't trust this GYN? Or should I see about having another Dr do it, even though I might not have time for that? (I'm about to move to another city, which means I will be leaving my current job and insurance.)

flow

[jema.livejournal.com]

while i am not in any way bi-polar, i do have a manic-month right now. high on life and full of joy and so this months flow came as a gift and not a curse. i feel beautiful and stong and whole/holy.
the blood that leaves my body is deep deep red and rich. i can ride with the pain now, breath with it and connect to that place inside where i create myths and tales and wonder.
how i wish this could have been the case then, when i was 11 years old and ashamed of leaving spots in my knickers. when the pain scared me and made me wish i would never ever grow up for real.