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[screamingnympho.livejournal.com]

Still waiting for my period. I started drinking the tea last night, to get it started. I really hope that it works...

I took a pregnancy test last night (Clear Plan Easy) and at my ex-boyfriends request, got an EPT on my way home last night. I took that one this morning.

Both are negative. Thank God.

Now I'm just worried about WHY my period is late... I know it is probably from stress, but still... it worries me when I'm late.

If I haven't started by Friday, I'm taking another test, and if that says negative, I'm going to the urgent clinic this weekend for a test. My ex has already said that he would go with me.

We have already started discussing our options. I'm against abortion, and he is for it, to a certain point. The way he sees it, if it has a heartbeat, it's alive, and abortion is not an option, but if it is still just cells that are constantly dividing, then it isn't yet alive, and is fair game.

We have also discussed adoption, and raising the child ourselves.

We know that the results from the tests are negative, but until I bleed, we are still talking over all the possibilities.

I keep thinking of the lyrics to Silent All These Years by Tori Amos... Especially because the reason we split, was because he was cheating on me... *sigh* Wish me luck?

So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you

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[beckmermaid.livejournal.com]

Hang in there- I'm 3 months late myself, and I've already been thru a round of hormones from my doctor (that haven't worked). The next step will probably be blood tests, and chances are that if your tests were negative, then it's something else- nothing to worry about, probably just hormone imbalances!!! :)

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[screamingnympho.livejournal.com]

I hate being late though... My home tests were negative. I haven't been to the doctor yet. That will probably be this weekend. Blah.

[youonlyknew.livejournal.com]

i always thought those lyrics also.
they made me feel better until i bled.

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[screamingnympho.livejournal.com]

Yeah... I didn't play that song for him last night... I played the chorus to China, as that one was also fitting with everything else that has been going on.

He wants me to call him as soon as I start bleeding. I hope it is soon.

[justrachel.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tightly*

its good that you are discussing options, because the possibility is often there. good luck no matter how this turns out- the experiance seems to be strengthening you quite a bit...

i love that song. so much.

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[screamingnympho.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

I know one thing for sure... Regardless of how much it costs, I'm getting an IUD after all this is done and over with. I can't put myself through this again.

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[justrachel.livejournal.com]

*nods* makes sense. again, good luck. *is here*

[d-licious.livejournal.com]

I found this.. and I began to read and my mother was sitting behind me and she said that after about 17 days thats when the dividing cells begin to have a heart beat. Im not sure if thats any help.. Just thought I'd say so? Well Good luck with everything. Sorry if im just making things worse..

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[screamingnympho.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the input. We are going to be looking into all the different options, if I am pregnant. I pray to God that I'm not, but there is always that slim chance...

[d-licious.livejournal.com]

Well I hope things go well for you.

i can relate

[eskimopamf.livejournal.com]

i just started mine about a week ago, but prior to that i was going on 3 weeks late. needless to say i was really freaked out. i took two pregnancy tests (EPT, and one at a clinic) about 4 days apart and both came out negative. of course, until i actually got my period, i was still skeptical. everyone says stress can delay it but it's kinda hard not to over something like this. just hang in there and hopefully everything will turn out for the best. good luck.