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Okay....so, thanks to the numerous replies to my tampon inquiries, I have taken the plunge and purchased a box of o.b. regular absorbancy tampons...it seems that the majority of women swear by o.b. so I opted for those. The regulars appeared to be the smallest size, which was my reason for purchasing them...this is my first attempt at tampons, and I am a virgin, so I know that anything much bigger than my finger isn't going to go well. So anyway....I'm on my green pills (4th row -- placebo pills) in my first pack of birth control...except my cycle is still all crazy. I got my period full-force on the 3rd or 4th pill in the 3rd row...and it is still full-force. So that's been...ummm (does quick math)..7 or 8 days of steadily heavy flow. Today I have used the last of my pads, so I guess this is the day I will try my o.b. tampons. I am scared to try but I'm going to suck it up and try anyway. I have gone through ob/gyn exams before, and I have been able to put my finger inside as well, so I just have to keep telling myself that it's nothing unusual and if I go slow it won't be painful (right?). Ugh...I am so tired of my period...I have had to wear pads for the past month...yes a MONTH!! I had my period during the first week of pills...then it stopped by the end of that week. But I still had what my gynecologist calls "old blood" being exvacuated from my body...just a dark tinge to the normal whatever. But I still had to wear a pad during that to keep from staining my panties. And then, after a week and a half of that, I get my period AGAIN full force and that's where i'm at now...so yeah. Birth control at this moment is not too high on my list of favorite things...my body is having a rough time adjusting to it, I guess. I am praying fervantly that my period ends AND that this time I don't have any of that "old blood" this time...I have big plans for Valentine's day and I am going to be VERY pissed if I have to worry about my period too!! Well this is the end of my vent....goodness I am so glad this community is here!!! It's great to be able to talk about this subject with other people who understand...my boyfriend tries really hard to listen to me when I start crying because it feels like I will have my period FOREVER, but he gets grossed out and prefers to not talk about whether or not I have it at the moment. I understand that but still, I need to be able to discuss this because it is so new (the birth control/tampons, I mean) and right now it's a major part of my life...always on my mind. So thank you all for listening and offering your helpful advice and experience. Now I am going to attempt a tampon....hopefully it will go well!
~ Becky