what I just posted to my journal

[sortofkindof.livejournal.com]

An unexpected turn of events.
So after all the hullabaloo, after the sulking and crying and whining and moping and staring blindly at the t.v... after all the logging in and logging out and wanting potato chips and having no snack food and feeling lonely and avoiding the stairwell. After all this feeling out of control, and being unable to stop my rash words and wrong headedness, after worrying people and hurting someone... was it all just biology... was it (dare I say) pms..? Do I need those newfangled moodswing pills? I HaTe having my body control my mind... and I want to pretend it can't. But does it? What a waste of emotions. Then again, I might be just using this as an excuse to assume I'm not actually just crazy in general. I think that's it. But I'll conveniently forget that. Perhaps I'll join the menstral hut community and stop corrupting innocent bystanders.

Comments

[sweetalyssm.livejournal.com]

sounds like it to me!

[dyfferent.livejournal.com]

You could try charting your moods for a few cycles and see if there's a pattern for you. If you're a pretty consistent poster, the "mood" function of LJ may be all you need, actually.

I have a friend who's done that and swears that her moods almost entirely depend on where she is in her cycle, and she has even charted it out so her boyfriend knows when to lie low, when to cuddle, when to propose bold new ideas, etc.

charting

[sortofkindof.livejournal.com]

yeah I actually tried something like that once but then gave up on it out of laziness I guess. I should try again. Thing is, when I was younger I avoided things based on when I'd get my period because I was always worried, self conscious, freaked out... and I got in that habit of marking my calendar for when it might come and then planning against myself or limiting myself. Becoming free of that, I stopped keeping track (maybe it's unhealthy) but then I forget I'm going to get it at all.