mandolin64.livejournal.comok... this has probably been the WORST week of my life... i hate birth control... hate hate hate hate hate it... someone please tell me it'll get better.... PLEASE... i'm going out of my mind...
so i started taking it about 3 weeks ago, meaning this week I started the non-hormone pills (i'm on yasmin, there's 28 pills.. 3 weeks hormones, 1 week non) and since this is the first time i've been on birth control of any sort, i've been running into side effect city... i'm not a normally moody person, but my boyfriend pointed out my snappish behaviour to me about a week or two ago... combined with the fact i'm paranoid of gaining any weight... and my boobs are swollen... which means it looks like they've grown, but they're just swollen and tender... anyway, i'm also stuck now with the period from hell... which has been pretty much constant... i've been informed what was going on before this week was "spotting" but it was still annoying because i basically didn't stop bleeding since i started taking birth control pills... which means, i've been bleeding everyday of some sort for almost a month now... ugh... grossness... it's been suggested that maybe i'm on too low of a dose of hormones, but i don't go home from college until mid-october, and my doctor is under the impression that my body will "get used to it" after this month or so... :-(
yesterday was the most hellacious day i've ever had in my life... i came back to my dorm after my french class (around 2) and attempted to eat some poptarts just so i could take some more midol (i had taken some around 10:00, but the effects were long gone) and apparently my body did NOT want poptarts, because those and the midol both came up about 15 minutes later... i had to miss my 3:00 class, which sucked, because we were supposed to be reviewing for a test... :-( and it was about the beatles... very sad... so my loving and adoring boyfriend came back from his class around 3:05, and when i asked him to come over, his only question was "as in now?" to which i said "as in i just threw up, as in i feel like crap, as in i'm not in class for a reason... as in i need to be taken care of" have i ever mentioned how wonderful this boy is? he came right over and cradled me up in his lap... mind i was wearing only my panties (because i had to rip the tampon out due to crampage, and i had gone back to pads... ewww... and i had gotten so overheated that i had stripped in the bathroom and gathered my bathrobe up to put myself in... so he just scooped me up in that and set me in his lap with his hands rubbing me... granted, as i sat there whimpering and keeping from screaming, he just got more and more worried... which was cute ;-) i got finally got to feeling better and my friends all decided we were going to go eat wherever i was hungry for... didn't matter where, just whatever appealed to me ;-) so then last night my cramps were taken care of... through lots of tlc by him... he took me back to his house so we could sleep in and not worry about his roommate... (that is, his mom lets us sleep in the same bed when we go there)
so then of course, i woke up this morning, and found the pad i'd been sleeping in completely soaked, blood having soaked through the back part of the panties i'd been wearing (thank god i'd been wearing some "period" panties :-p) as well as the pants i'd been sleeping in... but for some very awesome reason, i had not been sleeping on my back... which i don't really understand, because that's what the blood stains look like... but there is nothing on the sheets on the bed... still didn't make me happy, but much less upset than i would have been at myself... *long sigh* my body needs a rest
*smiles* i love my man!